[ ... how's she even talk about this... it feels a little embarrassing. ]
To be honest... I haven't been putting a lot of thought to it? I'm sort of just doing things one at a time, like focusing on Yesod and Netzach first.
[ she's a little apologetic, sure. but-- ]
I'm kinda relieved it hasn't come up again. Um, I guess I've gotten closer with Vergilius, and I'm really touched that he says he won't look away from me... He put me to sleep with a poem recently. Kaito's keeping busy as ever too, but I don't think he's avoiding me any either. [ as if her busy ass would clock it if he dared. ] Things are... okay. I just don't really know what I'm doing, even now.
No, I'm glad too. But I think Elijah had the right idea about chasing after the unattainable.
[ so much easier just to like someone................ and not be liked back............. is her not doing anything explicitly romantic, or simply treating them as she always does, taking their feelings and patience for granted? or is it alright? maybe she is just lonely and taking it out on people willing to fill her.
............... ]
Do you think I should try kissing Kaito too? I kinda, um, panicked when he tried kissing me the second time, even though I was really interested in it after he did it to my hands, I think it would answer some of my questions.
[ Well, Malkuth just needs time. And to understand herself, given that time and these new opportunities. But at the question, March blinks. ]
I... guess kissing him would answer some questions, yeah, but I also think you should only kiss someone if you feel like you want to. You know, for the sake of kissing them. [ Which she thinks she gets? Hopefully? ]
[ they can agree to disagree. it has its pros and cons. march won't ever understand this and malkuth hopes she never does. be reciprocated forever, girl. ]
I don't exactly look at someone and go "Oh, I wish I could kiss them," Marmar. It's... more of a mood thing. I was really wishing he would kiss me anywhere else when he healed my hands like that, [ sorry you're getting this knowledge march, ] but... I think I need to approach it versus him doing it. You know?
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To be honest... I haven't been putting a lot of thought to it? I'm sort of just doing things one at a time, like focusing on Yesod and Netzach first.
[ she's a little apologetic, sure. but-- ]
I'm kinda relieved it hasn't come up again. Um, I guess I've gotten closer with Vergilius, and I'm really touched that he says he won't look away from me... He put me to sleep with a poem recently. Kaito's keeping busy as ever too, but I don't think he's avoiding me any either. [ as if her busy ass would clock it if he dared. ] Things are... okay. I just don't really know what I'm doing, even now.
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[ And yet here they are. So confident at friendship, so... ... well. It's fine. ]
But it's not like you don't have your hands full already... one thing at a time, right?
[ Same principle, and she'd just said it herself. ]
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[ so much easier just to like someone................ and not be liked back............. is her not doing anything explicitly romantic, or simply treating them as she always does, taking their feelings and patience for granted? or is it alright? maybe she is just lonely and taking it out on people willing to fill her.
............... ]
Do you think I should try kissing Kaito too? I kinda, um, panicked when he tried kissing me the second time, even though I was really interested in it after he did it to my hands, I think it would answer some of my questions.
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[ Well, Malkuth just needs time. And to understand herself, given that time and these new opportunities. But at the question, March blinks. ]
I... guess kissing him would answer some questions, yeah, but I also think you should only kiss someone if you feel like you want to. You know, for the sake of kissing them. [ Which she thinks she gets? Hopefully? ]
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I don't exactly look at someone and go "Oh, I wish I could kiss them," Marmar. It's... more of a mood thing. I was really wishing he would kiss me anywhere else when he healed my hands like that, [ sorry you're getting this knowledge march, ] but... I think I need to approach it versus him doing it. You know?
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[ She's doing her best here. ]
I think if that's what you need to do, then go for it. And I'll be here to hear you out if you need it, without almost breaking your door.
[ Probably. No promises. ]
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I'm really sorry about that, okay? Though now I wonder how strong these doors are.
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[ is this a joke ]
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[ staring at her to make sure it's a joke ]
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[ maybe it isn't one...? ]
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