... [ Like Dan Heng? Come to think of it, she hadn't seen him lately, but--
Now isn't the time for that. March leans forward, letting pink bangs mingle with brown as she presses their foreheads together. ]
I'm sorry. [ Simply that, but it's hard to say anything comforting when it's something like that. She'd known that she hadn't wanted to hear anything reassuring when it had happened to her, she'd just wanted to not be alone. ]
I mean, it's... probably better like this anyway! [ it isn't. but malkuth half-laughs anyway, shaking her head. ] Can you imagine how awkward it'd be if he said no? Ryoji's a nice guy, but he wouldn't... lead someone on if he didn't feel the same, so at least he wouldn't pretend just to make me smile.
[ that, she was sure of. that's why she was confident enough to want to say something anyway, since she'd have a certain answer good or bad.
better to douse the flame now than let it be later anyway, probably. but it still really, really sucks that she didn't get to say anything this time too, the repetition of a mistake stuck in her mind. ]
[ It's not fine and it isn't better, and March hears her out in relative silence just to let her say what she wants about it, before she slowly shakes her head as she draws back. ]
You know... you don't have to act like it's always for the best or there's a bright spot in every immediate second, you know? You're allowed to feel sad about it.
... I know. I know, but... I don't really feel anything right now. It's just kind of like... "Oh, yeah, that would happen, huh?"
[ it isn't quite sadness, but there's definitely no relief in it either. malkuth watches their hands still, exhaling softly. she knows. she knows she shouldn't pretend or joke it off, especially around march. of all people, not her. ]
Taking some time to process it isn't bad, either. It doesn't have to be around me and if you want to change the subject, we totally can. But you don't have to lie about it. That's not going to be good for either of us.
[ It would just lead to March cheerfully saying something insensitive or unintentionally painful later down the line. ]
Oh, I can feel myself gaining pounds. [ in the happiest voice. ] We have got to go. Oh, there was an ice cream shop that was advertising this huge sundae coming in the summer too -- it's got something called starfruit on it? The bowl's as long as your arm!
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Now isn't the time for that. March leans forward, letting pink bangs mingle with brown as she presses their foreheads together. ]
I'm sorry. [ Simply that, but it's hard to say anything comforting when it's something like that. She'd known that she hadn't wanted to hear anything reassuring when it had happened to her, she'd just wanted to not be alone. ]
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[ it isn't, but she'll make it be. ]
I mean, it's... probably better like this anyway! [ it isn't. but malkuth half-laughs anyway, shaking her head. ] Can you imagine how awkward it'd be if he said no? Ryoji's a nice guy, but he wouldn't... lead someone on if he didn't feel the same, so at least he wouldn't pretend just to make me smile.
[ that, she was sure of. that's why she was confident enough to want to say something anyway, since she'd have a certain answer good or bad.
better to douse the flame now than let it be later anyway, probably. but it still really, really sucks that she didn't get to say anything this time too, the repetition of a mistake stuck in her mind. ]
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You know... you don't have to act like it's always for the best or there's a bright spot in every immediate second, you know? You're allowed to feel sad about it.
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[ it isn't quite sadness, but there's definitely no relief in it either. malkuth watches their hands still, exhaling softly. she knows. she knows she shouldn't pretend or joke it off, especially around march. of all people, not her. ]
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[ It would just lead to March cheerfully saying something insensitive or unintentionally painful later down the line. ]
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[ she knows herself. inhale, one two three, exhale. ]
Let's change the topic. To... anything else. I don't care.
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So March will ease back, to return to her fingers. ]
What do you think about doing afternoon tea again sometime soon? This time just the two of us.
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she really does not deserve march!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]
Oh, that'd be awesome -- I feel like we haven't scraped the surface of all the delicious snacks that can go with it, too.
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[ Oh, she's bubbling over with energy. ]
One of the places I go to just swapped to their summer menu! It's supposed to be mostly bright and citrus-y flavors!
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[ citrus!!!!!!!! her favorites!!!!!!!!! ]
Oh, I can feel myself gaining pounds. [ in the happiest voice. ] We have got to go. Oh, there was an ice cream shop that was advertising this huge sundae coming in the summer too -- it's got something called starfruit on it? The bowl's as long as your arm!
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[ Extends her arm to stare at it. ]
Seriously?!
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[ so long. so filled with ice cream and fruits and sweet and sugar. ]
They'll probably make it a challenge or a couple's special to share, but we should get it anyway.
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[ She believes in them. ]
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[ that's how that works. ]
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[ Now we have a game plan. ]